"The other terror that scares us from self-trust is our consistency; a reverence for our past act or word, because the eyes of others have no other data for computing our orbit than our past acts, and we are loath to disappoint them. But why should you keep your head over your shoulder? Why drag about this corpse of your memory...? Suppose you should contradict yourself; what then? ... A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds.. Speak what you think now in hard words, and to-morrow speak what to-morrow thinks in hard words again, though it contradict every thing you said to-day. --'Ah, so you shall be sure to be misunderstood.'--Is it so bad, then to be misunderstood? ... To be great is to be misunderstood... A character is like an acrostic or Alexandrian stanza;--read it forward, backward, or across, it still spells the same thing. In this pleasing contrite wood-life which God allows me, let me record day by day my honest thought without prospect or retrospect, and, I cannot doubt it, it will be found symmetrical, though I mean it not, and see it not. ... We pass for what we are."
He says earlier, talking about saying what you believe to be true even if you don't know it's true or complete, "We but half express ourselves, and are ashamed of that divine idea which each of us represents. It may be safely trusted as proportionate and of good issues, so it be faithfully imparted, but God will not have his work made manifest by cowards."
~Ralph Waldo Emerson, Self-Reliance
Henry David Thoreau's Walden makes me much less happy. Where I Lived and What I Lived for I rather liked, and Reading was all right, but his first chapter made me want to punch him in the head. A lot.
Gulliver's Travels... Jury's still out. Swift wins no points for beauty of prose; where Emerson can half-convince me of things I totally disagree with just by saying them in pretty words, Swift's style is blank and direct (or at least seems so -- he does some clever things with vocabulary and perspective that I think I like and, and which I need to examine more closely so I can see how to steal them). But he also sneakily uses satire so I'm never quite sure whether I disagree with him, and occasionally he's fairly funny, though I wish I knew more history. I don't like having to rely on the footnotes so heavily for the political situation when he was writing.
Jose Marti's Nuestra America makes some great points, but the language is so intricate and complex, with such impressive vocabulary, that it seems obvious his audience is not the people he claims are the heart of South America, but the sort of people he claims have helped destroy it and take away its core identity. Still, some lovely metaphors, if you put the work into understanding them, and some lovely memorable lines.
Meanwhile, Renaissance history is full of details to be mined for story ideas, my class discussions have all been excellent so far, I recently had a sing-along with some friends that ranged from Disney to Brotherhood 2.0, and my room remains yellowjacket free. All in all, I'm having a good start to the semester.
