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cachinna
02 February 2010 @ 08:13 pm
Emerson's Self-Reliance makes me happy:
"The other terror that scares us from self-trust is our consistency; a reverence for our past act or word, because the eyes of others have no other data for computing our orbit than our past acts, and we are loath to disappoint them. But why should you keep your head over your shoulder? Why drag about this corpse of your memory...? Suppose you should contradict yourself; what then? ... A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds.. Speak what you think now in hard words, and to-morrow speak what to-morrow thinks in hard words again, though it contradict every thing you said to-day. --'Ah, so you shall be sure to be misunderstood.'--Is it so bad, then to be misunderstood? ... To be great is to be misunderstood... A character is like an acrostic or Alexandrian stanza;--read it forward, backward, or across, it still spells the same thing. In this pleasing contrite wood-life which God allows me, let me record day by day my honest thought without prospect or retrospect, and, I cannot doubt it, it will be found symmetrical, though I mean it not, and see it not. ... We pass for what we are."

He says earlier, talking about saying what you believe to be true even if you don't know it's true or complete, "We but half express ourselves, and are ashamed of that divine idea which each of us represents. It may be safely trusted as proportionate and of good issues, so it be faithfully imparted, but God will not have his work made manifest by cowards."

~Ralph Waldo Emerson, Self-Reliance

Henry David Thoreau's Walden makes me much less happy. Where I Lived and What I Lived for I rather liked, and Reading was all right, but his first chapter made me want to punch him in the head. A lot.

Gulliver's Travels... Jury's still out. Swift wins no points for beauty of prose; where Emerson can half-convince me of things I totally disagree with just by saying them in pretty words, Swift's style is blank and direct (or at least seems so -- he does some clever things with vocabulary and perspective that I think I like and, and which I need to examine more closely so I can see how to steal them). But he also sneakily uses satire so I'm never quite sure whether I disagree with him, and occasionally he's fairly funny, though I wish I knew more history. I don't like having to rely on the footnotes so heavily for the political situation when he was writing.

Jose Marti's Nuestra America makes some great points, but the language is so intricate and complex, with such impressive vocabulary, that it seems obvious his audience is not the people he claims are the heart of South America, but the sort of people he claims have helped destroy it and take away its core identity. Still, some lovely metaphors, if you put the work into understanding them, and some lovely memorable lines.


Meanwhile, Renaissance history is full of details to be mined for story ideas, my class discussions have all been excellent so far, I recently had a sing-along with some friends that ranged from Disney to Brotherhood 2.0, and my room remains yellowjacket free. All in all, I'm having a good start to the semester.
 
 
cachinna
01 January 2010 @ 11:06 am
2009
One funeral. Two crazy semesters of college. Three days at Confluence following one marvelous session of Alpha. Four rejection letters. Five floors on campus (on three campuses, in six rooms). Six books planned as one of the three co-editors-in-chief of Press. Seven (or so) weeks of internship at Sourcebooks Publishing. Eight books read in the first week of winter break. Nine thousand yellowjackets. Ten million awkward, fabulous, horrible, or beautiful moments that I'll remember forever.
It's been a pretty wild year, some of it spectacularly awful and some of it spectacularly wonderful. Here's hoping next year is just as wonderful and not quite as awful.

2010
Just now I'm in a particularly optimistic mood about this upcoming year because I'm currently looking forward to a certain Evil house guest coming today (!), not to mention a huge party my family is throwing tomorrow for many wonderful people, plus three more weeks of vacation before I have to return to school.
To quote A Very Potter Musical: It's gonna be totally awesome.
 
 
cachinna
05 November 2009 @ 09:53 pm
So far I'm still up to date on NaNo! I got off to a bad start but made up for it by writing 3000 words one morning before my afternoon classes, and have been making my daily total each day since then. It's garbage, but I suppose that's what NaNo is for, really. And I have unprecedented numbers of friends doing NaNo this year, which is also terribly exciting!

Also making good progress on stories for Craft of Fiction, so all in all it's a good month for writing.

Latest update in the yellowjacket saga, for those who are curious: We're in our third set of rooms so far (now split into two closet singles) and apparently we're not allowed to keep these either. Sigh.

I am almost to the point of declaring my majors! I have advisors lined up, a four-year plan written, and only a few more steps before I am officially an English-Spanish double major. I may still have no idea what to do with my life, but this feels like progress!

Excerpts!
Nameless Craft of Fiction Story )

NaNoWriMo )


 
 
cachinna
24 October 2009 @ 01:16 pm
I actually wrote this a while ago, by hand, while I was hiding out from yellowjackets at school. Just typed it up and thought I'd share.


His arm had withered in the last war. The statues showed him with both, one with sword and one with shield -- or sword and spear, where defensive fighting was out of fashion.

The statues didn't look much like him, Richard thought critically as he passed under one of them on his way to work. Not just because they were ten feet tall and he was well under six, but he had never been that handsome, and didn't wear his hair long like that anymore.

His son Joseph had been growing his own hair out. Richard thought he looked stupid. The statues, too, looked stupid -- a college kid on a heroic crusade.

Richard liked his job. He had a comfortable desk chair and a beautiful computer and plenty of coffee. He needed a lot, now, to stay awake. He remembered being alert all day and night when he was young. He preferred it this way -- a long day and then a long and peaceful rest.

Reaching his office, he settled in for the morning, putting statues and even Joey's terrible hair out of his mind. He called up Excel and started working the data. It was slower, typing with only one hand, but Richard was used to it by now. The company-wide survey showed slightly higher employee satisfaction than last year. His boss would be pleased. Richard drank some more coffee, filling his World's Greatest Dad mug in the break room.

At 11:00 precisely Richard packed up his briefcase and left for lunch. Only three blocks to the café where he always ate. He passed a yellow flyer for the opening of a brand new museum. The Helsinger Museum, he read in passing, not thinking much about it. Good old Bobby. Richard missed him.

They had kept his usual corner table open for him. He liked having his back to the wall, even now, to be near an exit through the kitchen but at an angle to the door where no one coming through it with a rifle would be able to hit him. He ordered his usual egg on rye toast and salad, lemonade, coffee, thank you Rhonda, your hair looks lovely today, and pulled out his laptop. He usually worked through lunch.

 
 
cachinna

(So the subject is just "I write, but I don't write my psych paper," in Indonesian. Or it is if I got the words right.)

I have a paper due on Friday, and it's so hard to motivate myself to write an essay when I have hours and hours of time tomorrow to do it... So I'm procrastinating using the wonderful time-waster that is Livejournal! Hooray!

Also, one of my friends has been teaching me Indonesian. So far I'm not even slightly proficient. My favorite sentence is "Saya mau satu es krem waffle," which just means, "I want an ice cream waffle." That's because ice cream waffles are delicious (lately we've been adding fun toppings, like cinnamon and brown sugar, and it makes them even more epic). I dream of someday being good at the language (not a completely impossible dream, considering that Indonesian has just about none of things that make languages hard, but still an improbable one, because it is very low on cognates, es krem waffle notwithstanding).

Just over two weeks until NaNoWriMo! I am in a group on campus, I am in the group for OctoPrepMo, I have no idea what I'm writing about, and I'm pysched.

On a totally unrelated note, here's a very short bit of a nonexistent scene. I wrote it a long time ago and liked the rhythm and concept of it.

   “How much for a soul?”
   “Are you buying or selling?”
   “How pure? How defiled?”
   “Is it old?”
   “Is it whole?”
   “How much for a soul?”
   The caverns were full of fog and the wild bargaining, gossip and laughter of an eerie multitude. The tourists ducked by, hoping to avoid eye contact with the soul traders gabbling, arguing, hawking their wares.
   “I’ve a nice one right here! Hardly any wear on it!”
   “I’ll trade you this kid for the murderers there.”
   “No need, I’ve got stingy old men by the dozen.”
   “That’s got a nice shimmer, which raises the price.”
   “How much for a soul?”
   “Was it naughty or nice?"

 
 
cachinna
 So it turns out my optimism over the yellowjacket problem was extremely misplaced.

My roommate and I returned to our room planning to catch and release the few remaining now-sluggish-because-they're-diurnal wasps in our room. We did indeed get rid of one in this manner... And then in trying to catch the only other one we could see we woke a third. With one on the ceiling and one on the floor and none of them easy to catch, we called security hoping they would come get rid of the wasps for us and not, you know, just laugh at our insect-patheticism. The head of security did indeed come by planning to get rid of the yellowjackets... but when he found not just the two in the room proper but also the six or more behind the curtain... Well, he declared himself outnumbered and called the on-duty Residence Life Coordinator, and my roommate and I ended up, as my roommate put it, literally exiled by wasps. We slept in another dorm (and I sure do have a new appreciation for sub-free housing; they were partying until about two in the morning across the hall from us in this other dorm) and they claim they'll have some kind of expert here sometime today. I hope that's the case.


On a more cheerful note, I may have an advisor and therefore be able to declare a major! Plus I joined a four-session Persuasion (by Jane Austen) reading group and had the first session yesterday, which was great fun. So other than the crazy wasp problem, life is pretty excellent.

And I got another rejection letter! I am definitely doing rejectomancy with this one and trying to figure out exactly how close it came... Silly and pointless, but fun. And now I can use that story for other things! Excellent. My number of rejection letters is still tiny, but it is determinedly growing.
 
 
cachinna
04 October 2009 @ 06:36 pm
So I mentioned in an earlier post that someone had come to stop the yellowjackets from sneaking into our room under cover of blinding sunshine and that we were Safe from the Winged Terror. Turns out they did some nice work on the window and didn't fix the problem at all.

Today we had six get into our room. Six. Just today. And of course my roommate says that Potentially Being Stung isn't the same as Death, and so apparently they are not enough of a threat to justify Killing them in Cold Blood. And they do indeed make my blood run cold... Today we had two at once at one point without realizing it, so when I went to catch one (safely and gently in a Tupperware container, thence to be taken outside so it could Fly Free and probably Return Another Day) another one flew directly into my hand, causing me to drop the Tupperware and the trapped bee while I jumped off the chair and yelped and looked frantically around for both of them. Not the most dignified moment of my life, but luckily my roommate too has a certain fear of vicious crazed wasps and she was very understanding and didn't laugh her head off at my crazy antics (nor did she laugh when I did it again a few moments later under only slightly different circumstances). Anyway, it had become obvious the whole fixed-window-theory was pure falsehood, so we duct taped around the entire window screen frame. About ten minutes later our sixth wasp of the day flew in, so we know for sure it isn't the window that's admitting the demons. We found another potential entrance and taped that up and haven't seen any since, but I don't trust them to stay away. I don't think I've ever looked forward to really killer cold weather with such glowing anticipation. But perhaps the last round of duct tape worked and we are now Safe and Sound, and my roommate can go back to sleeping facing the window and I can turn my back on that side of the room without Terror. If so, it was a good day, and worth all the wasp attacks.

I am going to have to wash most of my Tupperware after all of this. Oh, well.


One of my friends got some mehndi in the mail from her mom (alliteration!) and we drew on our hands a bit (well, we both drew on my hand, hers looking somewhat more traditional than mine, and she did her own separately, wisely not trusting me to be able to imitate the designs we looked up at all). I'm quite pleased with how mine came out and have had a couple of compliments on it, which is lovely, including from a delightful but obviously sadly inexperienced girl at the library who thought the lines "looked kind of thin for permanent marker" but didn't guess it was henna until I told her.

It's a good thing no one sends me henna in the mail. Both my hands would be covered in designs all the time. It's just too much fun. So instead I doodle on paper where I a) can also use color and b) don't have to live with the results for a few weeks if it comes out looking too stupid.


I'm supposed to be planning my schedule for the next three years or so of my life at the moment. It's sort of terrifying. I mean, I can hardly keep track of which homework I'll do tomorrow and which the day after, let alone what classes I'll be taking next year or whether/where I want to study abroad. I think they give me too much credit. Perhaps they're mad. Well, no probably not -- it's not like they're letting me plan their futures. : )
 
 
cachinna
22 September 2009 @ 10:17 am

I got my first credit card (not the first I've used, but the first that is mine and mine alone) yesterday. This means that, unlike with my sparkly debit card, I have been given the ability to instantaneously and invisibly borrow money at any moment without anyone reminding me that I owe them money (because, of course, credit card companies like you to owe them money so they can charge exorbitant interest rates, charge you more money, and eventually plunge you into infinite debt, leaving you bankrupt and with bad credit that will forever haunt you and keep anyone from loaning you money, so you will never again be able to pay for anything and you're facing the end of life as you know it).

OK, so I'm a little scared of credit cards. I blame the Great Depression-caused-by-invention-of-buying-on-credit day of US History.

Mostly I consider this event significant not because of it's life-ruining potential (well, for that too), but because it is yet another Sign that I am becoming a Grown-Up Adult Person (ha!). When people ask my age and I tell them, I always have to suppress the urge to add, "No, wait, that can't be right... I think I meant fifteen. No, wait, twelve."

No one should be entrusting me with a credit card. It's ridiculous.


On a younger note, I bought some gummy worms yesterday and have been slowly and happily making my way through the bag. They're delicious. They're mostly half-red, half-some-other-color, and I like red the least, so I've been eating the red parts first, which means a whole lot of biting-heads-off, which should not be as much fun as it is... Everyone should have gummy worms. They may be my favorite non-chocolate candy.

Mmm, gummy worms.
 

And on a pretty unrelated note, in Abnormal Psychology I was just learning about some new OCD classifications. There are two different familial variations, one related to tic disorders and one not so much. They have different symptoms and treatments.

And then there's the third one, which is caused by getting strep as a kid and which comes and goes through your life as you get sick, and it's called (really!) Sporadic PANDAS. Hee-hee, best kind of OCD ever [Required Disclaimer: OCD is a mental disorder that can cause very real distress and that should be taken seriously and not ever made fun of ever. Even this form of OCD, while the mildest, can cause full-blown symptoms on occasion that can interfere with a person's everyday life, and as such it should be treated with respect. End Disclaimer]. If I thought I actually had this (rather than just having mild compulsive behaviors that look a bit like OCD) I would put this on a T-shirt with pictures of pandas fading in and out, and I would wear it all the time.

 
 
cachinna
13 September 2009 @ 08:48 pm
This past Friday my lab in statistics was on codebreaking using bar graphs. I have never loved bar graphs so much (and we got the alphabet shift right on our first try!).

If all of my math classes had used codebreaking to explain things, maybe today I would like math.
 
 
cachinna
06 September 2009 @ 08:05 pm
First of all, I want to say a few brief words in praise of deadlines. Especially Evil Imminent Deadlines that suck your soul away and make you write at high speeds when you'd really rather be eating ice cream with friends or something. Because those are the deadlines that make me actually, occasionally, Finish A Story. Which sadly happens almost never otherwise. So hooray for my fiction class, which is requiring that I use at least one of those... [1, 2, 3...] 54 ideas in my narrowed-down-ideas file.


Also! If you're reading this, then I'd like to know your answer: If you, exactly as you are now, were going off to seek your fortune, where would you go first and what would you bring?


Just watched A Very Potter Musical with friends (a musical of all seven Harry Potter books crammed together, with some really weird twists). It made me happy, especially the bits with Voldemort and Quirrell. I recommend it.
 
 
cachinna
29 August 2009 @ 03:13 pm
The local library in Grinnell-the-town had a book sale to get rid of their extra books. It was 50 cents for paperbacks and a dollar for hardcover... Or it was until noon, at which point it turned into One Dollar Per Box. I bought 26 books for a dollar. Life is awesome. If only my textbooks came that cheaply.

Unfortunately, of course, I live in a dorm room, which means spare space is pretty much one of those myths people tell around the campfire with a flashlight pointed at their faces. As it turned out, however, I had not yet used up all of the Space Under the Bed, which is a beautiful place where no one can walk and you can therefore stick anything and everything without obstructing pathways or justice. Getting them home should be fun... Perhaps I'll bring them home in shifts, a few at each break, or I could send most of them home with my parents when they come to visit in a month, because there will be plenty of space in the car without Rachel and the Nine Thousand Tons of Room Supplies.

Meanwhile, I have now had my first session of four out of my five classes. They look like they'll range from pretty interesting to Pure Undiluted Awesome.

My "Biotechnology and Its Social Impact" class is making me crazy with sci-fi ideas, and I barely ever even write sci-fi. Mostly they're just worldbuilding things. Also, I've discovered that basically the coolest product ever will fail utterly if it isn't economically viable and managed by smart people. Also, that copyright law can give elaborate projects a slow and lingering death in agony. Hooray for the human race -- sure, we can make tomatoes tastier, put much-needed vitamins in rice, and produce edible vaccines for developing countries -- but will it Make Money? No? Then Why Do It?

Have begun reading Sandman comics from the beginning. I think I like them but they're so depressing and icky that I can't tell yet. So I will keep reading them like a desperate comic addict until I discover they haven eaten holes in my soul or until I reach the end of Allison's collection, whichever comes first.
 
 
cachinna
12 August 2009 @ 01:19 pm
There's a gas station near my house that is selling bonsai trees (!!!). The cheapest ones are $25, the most expensive are something like $200. I'm still trying to figure out the connection between gasoline and bonsai. I suppose it might become a story.

Going to the doctor today reminded me why I hate growing up. I got a shot and they didn't give me a cool Band-Aid, which depressed me, because what's the point of getting a shot if you don't get a sparkly Band-Aid? Plus they were giving little kids in the waiting room stickers... I used to collect stickers. I love stickers. But now that I'm in college, suddenly there are no more stickers for me. Plus they made me fill out my own paperwork, which is just lame.

It is now officially less than two weeks until I go back to school. Happily, my roommate and I are arriving on the same day, so we'll be able to rearrange the furniture to our hearts' content before actually settling in. And then hopefully I'll be helping staff a table for the publishing group I'm helping run next year! So that should keep my mind off the homesickness and whatnot.

There's some movie with the subtitle "The Adventure of the Wishing Rock" coming out soon. I saw the previews and they didn't look very good, but I almost want to see it just because the actual title is Shorts, and I have no idea why. Is the movie (as seems likely from but unconfirmed by the previews I've seen) a series of short vignettes? Is there a deep and profound message about wearing shorts? Are all of the characters achondroplastic dwarfs? (If you can answer this question for me so I don't have to go see it/look it up, I will be grateful and will send you an imaginary metaphorical cookie or something, since my baking skills are approximately nonexistent.)
 
 
cachinna
09 August 2009 @ 12:43 pm
I have a new website, rachelhalpern.webs.com, in case you're curious. Making websites takes up way too much time and is ridiculously fun.

In totally unrelated news...
I'm about to start the last week of my internship, and then it's barely over a week before I'm back at college! All of this is probably fine-to-good news, but I don't like change...

It turns out that if you're feeling mildly depressed, looking up pictures of balloons on Google image search is a fantastic mood-lifter. Not as good as chocolate, but definitely up there. : )
 
 
cachinna
08 August 2009 @ 07:56 pm
Just a post to say I got my first non-contest rejection letter e-mail today! Yay!

I also purchased most of my schoolbooks on Amazon (one of them for 27 cents! Ha-ha-ha bargains yay!) and worked on my soon-to-be-website. : ) I feel very productive.

Oh, and I saw Star Trek IV again yesterday. Star Trek takes suspended disbelief to whole new levels of glaring inconsistencies and implausibilities. Which doesn't mean I don't like it, because I do, because Bones and Spock make my world glorious and full of laughter (especially Spock with a sweatband. Hee-hee-hee). But I still find myself wishing that someone would do something sensible more than twice every three hours of film time. And a piece of functional science would be awesome, too (they were collecting photons from a nuclear reactor through a metal wall and using them to power a spaceship! I know that hardly compares to the slingshot one-time-only time travel, but it made me kind of crazy). Still, time travel for whales... I have to say, the concept makes me happy.

Approximately everyone I know has gone to Wisconsin in the last few weeks. It's like I'm an immune carrier for a strange Wisconsin-magnet plague. One of my friends even went twice!

If you find yourself irresistibly drawn to Wisconsin after reading this post, I apologize for spreading the contagion... let me know and I will add you to my list of the infected.
 
 
cachinna
07 August 2009 @ 10:13 am
OK, I just heard today about metamaterials (from my mom, and then from articles) and I have fallen in love with science. OK, I still plan to be an English major, but it's a close thing!

Here's the summary:
Metamaterials are materials built by taking super-tiny layers of material (as in, tinier than the wavelength of light) and sticking them together in a way that bends light. It bends the light the way a single piece of glass would, but without having to be curved, and with much more precision.

Here's the cool part:
They think they can use them to make invisibility cloaks.

No, really. If you put these things around an object in the right way, the light will hit them and refract, bending around the object, and then bending back again when it gets to the other side, so that what your eye detects is the light from the other side of the object, just as if the object were not there. There are still apparently some bugs to work out (if the light bends around you, you can't see anything outside any more than they can see you. Plus getting all the different wavelengths to refract exactly the same way and not prism is tricky), but stil. Invisibility cloaks.

There are other applications -- micro-surgery, for instance, because they can control exactly where the light goes and see a larger area without losing clarity -- but I thought invisibility was the coolest part.

Then I went to read up on it, and guess what?

They think they can do it with earthquakes, too. Any wave can be deflected that way. They're not sure they've got it working, but they're pretty sure it's possible to make buildings basically invisible to earthquakes.

Sciencesciencescience. : D

More reading:

http://abcnews.go.com/Technology/Story?id=3730842&page=2
http://abcnews.go.com/Technology/Science/story?id=8112569&page=1
http://spie.org/x36208.xml?ArticleID=x36208
 
 
cachinna
07 August 2009 @ 09:49 am

I have submitted stuff to places! I await my rejection letters with anticipation approaching glee.
 

Quick book recommendations: )

I got to train somebody in the Shipping Room at work yesterday. Since I was trained on it about two weeks ago (and have only spent about three days altogether in there), this seemed unwise of my bosses, but fortunately it was a super-light day and my trainee (an actual employee at the company who's going to help me cover shipping until a new Shipping Person arrives) was a quick learner. It made me feel extremely important. : )

And then I went and hung out with friends I won't see while we're all in college. My friend has a small trampoline, and it's a mix of black and neon orange and super bouncy, and so I basically carried on most of my conversations while jumping up and down. Probably the most excercise I've had in months, sad to say. Trampolines, Oatmeal Creme Pies, Butter Chicken, and Gulab Jamun -- sort of the perfect party.

Yesterday was a good day.
 
 
cachinna
10 August 2007 @ 12:00 pm

One week until school starts. If you can feel my enthusiasm from here, you're probably sensing someone else. Too much homework still to do, among other considerations.

I am happy to have my schedule, though. It's always nice to know what you're in for... For what you're in? In for what you are? Oh, well, the people who created the preposition rule were just trying to recreate Latin anyway. What you're in for.

Out of a total inability to think of anything to write here in my first-ever LiveJournal entry, I will now add my schedule to this post.


1. Intro to Psychology
2. AP Biology
3. Español V
4. LUNCH
5. English Literature
6. AP Literature/Composition
7. GYM
8. Deutsch IV


Please note the wonderful beauty of two English classes, two foreign languages classes, and (most importantly, of of course) NO MATH. : D Sometimes life is exquisitely beautiful.

I have only one week left until school starts -- a week that will be spent visiting colleges and traveling around the East Coast area -- in which I must read and summarize 12 more chapters of a barely entertaining Spanish radio play in writing, fill out roughly 2.5 pages of Biology questions (many in actuality relating to Chemistry), find three passages in Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison which illustrate major themes of the novel, and finish a brief essay on the manner in which I read said novel. Plus sometime in that span I must finish collecting and preparing school supplies. And I'm supposed to be starting on college essays and whatnot -- ha! As if I'm remotely that responsible.

Anyway, I have now added enough text to justify the existence of this post, and I am therefore content for the moment. I hope anyone and everyone happening to read this is also happening to have a magnificent day.

 
 
 
 

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